[in]spired

little people, my fellow blossoms..

it has been over 1 entire month since I have written! Too much has been going on in my life.. Hectic schedules were thrown around and I’ve been struggling.. HOWEVER.. I am currently so inspired that I felt the unnerving desire to write a post. I should totally do this more often. Alas, the reason for my exceptionally good mood is that I have reunited with an old friend. The details are unnecessary, but do know that I am smiling rather large smiles.

Moving on, in my last blog, I uncovered my top-secret addiction to Ugly Betty! I have another confession! I am obsessed with DROP.DEAD.DIVA! Have any of you watched it? (LIFE, 8pm..) Thanks to my amazing Netflix account, I was able to engage in all availabel seasons and await the middle of july for episode 3, season 3, to be UNLEASHED (drumroll..)

Anyway.. PERSONAL UPLOAD.. I’ve been fortunate enough to have a talented music producer take interest in my talent, and will be working with a small team to record really radical hip-hop music.. YES, I have to rap! and I am practising diligently. (To all my fans in SA, I am going to try get the music played on TUKS.fm and 5.fm) My music style has varied a lot, and I’m really excited about this! May it be the beginning of a very fortunate life. MAZEL TOV!

Anyway.. the upload of the past month and a bit..

1.) Tons of laundry

2.) As seen in the picture on the

right, I got a new hair-cut FRESH!

3.) I’ve been writing a LOT of music

4.) I scored an A in college, made it onto

the dean’s list.. PARTY!

5.) Summer vacation has allowed me to

read a little more. I actually finished

a rad book called REVOLUTION, about

the French Rev.. Those of you who know

me PERSONALLY know that this is HUGE!

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That’s pretty much it! YAY! I’ve gotten really good at summarising too.

Oh, one more..

6.) I’ve gotten to explore DC a little more!

It’s an AMAZING place.. I’m so fortunate to  be in this area! God’s blest my life HUGELY!!

Love you all people.. Make sure to keep a look out for my music on www.facebook.com/catiamadalena.page

 

xx

So, here I am; eyes filled with tears, my pj-shirt damp with marks of my smudged make-up and a tiny bit of actual [inspiration]. And, yes, I have just finished all 4 Seasons of Ugly Betty in a week.

Throughout the past week, I became obsessed with “Ugly Betty”,the American dramedy television series, due to fact that I finally subscribed to Netflix. As a result, I am sitting cross-legged in bed, tears streaming down my face, hormones flying all over the place – and all because for the [first] time, in a long time, I actually feel inspired. Betty Suarez (America Ferrera’s character) has taken me along her 4 year journey within a week. I have experienced pain and joy, stronger desire for weightloss and fitting-in as well as guidance in my life… and this show has made me realise that I, Catia Madalena, have got so much in common with Betty Suarez.

I too, was a misfit. I wore braces for 7 years, still struggle with weight issues and I long for more. I desire to reach my dreams. The first step I took to reaching my dreams was in fact coming here to USA. I was looking for a life changing experience, new friends, a new path for my future… and I have now realised that I am the only change I can make. Throughout the 4 seasons of this TV show, Betty learns to accept herself, her inner beauty, take on challenges, etc. She confronted ever problem without fail and even when it would hurt her or someone she really loved and cared for, she would still do the right thing – even if it only benefitted the enemy.

I am here, in America, with an amazing opportunity to find myself. I have found a small part of myself, and I have many dreams I need to catagorise, but… here I am, and I now realise that I am not making the best of my opportunity; an opportunity I made happen for myself – an opportunity I deserve. I deserve happiness and meaning in my life. I have those few people who disagree with me, I have the Wilhelmina Slater in my life that makes my life a misery and I have a Claire Meade in my life that supports me and guides me when I need direction. I am a wonderful combination of everything I have experienced in my life; and I have realised that I have the opportunity to become greater, by experiencing more. I have been inspired to take on a new challenge, and live for myself, become the greatest I can be. I want to be a role-model, a best friend, a girlfriend and of course, myself. I have realized I need to broaden my horizons in life to feel more and become more. I desire to learn more.

So, blossoms, here is my new start. I want to blossom myself into the most beautiful tree i could be with my roots touching lives and my scent being drawn in. I want to be become the confident woman I have dreamed of being, that will turn heads in streets with her glow of happiness.

So.. I have come up with a plan. As of last night, I am officially on summer vacation for 4 months. I have decided that I am going to blog a lot more about experiences I create and friends and contacts I make and music that I write…

and faith that I grow…

I am Catia Madalena. I long to be brave and fearless. I am going to do 2 different things (min) a week to make myself feel alive, to remind myself that my life now is what I chose. I am here, in America, and for the first time I feel like I am in control of my life and what I chose to do.

I want my music to touch the lives of people, by writing lyrics and melodies to the experiences I created for myself. We’re all human beings, and we all feel compassion at some point of out lives. Memories make who we are and memories are what allow you to feel like you can hold the world in your palm.

I am Catia Madalena, and I am inspired to be inspiring and to inspire those that have not felt simple, yet beautiful, inspiration.

x

CM

haVe a [LISTEN]

[this is real, this is me] be catiamadalena

x CM

HOO[ray]!

blossoms…

ok… so… life? is good. I’m currently a little bit flu-y.. but it’s passing. It’s the navy ball tomorrow night! i cannot wait! much excitement! whoohooo!!! bought this gorgeous purple mini dress and i have some smexy black heels. yes. i am prepared! hahaha! gonna be a good night woth my stunning friends partying it up with the US NAVY! [excitement!]

hmmmm.. also, i presented on tuesday, and it went well. i was sorta pleased with how my design turned out. also, design week at the DC Design Centre was extravagant! Yesterday’s talk about Movie Set Design with guest speakers was a mind opener! Really something phenominal.

Oh… and i have allergies to the Spring pollen in DC.. not cool!

Lastly, the lovely Miss Sarah Fraiser (Talk show host on Hot 99.5 DC) is following me on twitter! how cool! (yes, you too mr brown) <— some of you knw what i’m talking about! hahaha yes chris.. yes..

so.. blossoms, that is all. might have greater news within a week.

oh oh! [i've] lost 8lbs now..

[CELEBRATION] – gonna be a gooooooood weekend!

x CM

[guitar] much?

blossoms,

i have almost saved enough to buy my new guitar! i cannot wait. too eager. i have so much planned for my life.. and i have to wait for afew months before i beginto achieve my goals i’ve set out. crazy much? agreed.

have a project due tomorrow. i hate hand rendering. i just realised that. call me a hypocrite. yes, i am. i enjoy rendering too. i just don’t know. there’s something looney with me. sitting in thetv room, listening to hot 99>5.. grenade, bruno mars.. [sigh] bruno, how is your life? i often find myself wondering about the lives of celebs. is it what i want? it is truly? yes. it is. i cant dream or think of anything else. i want to make music that thrills the world. music that changes the world. i want the world to know, my blossoms, of me. of who i [am],,, yes. of catiamadalena, and that she [yes i] will conquer my dreams.

been doing research.. what do people want in music? other than a hefty swinging tune? [i mean lyrics-wise]. do they want love poems? or do they want songs based on the natural disasters in this world such as unclipped toenails and the earthquake in japan?

ah.. pretty girl rock now.. keri.. i feel like you do sometimes.. but.. myname is Catia.. and boys dont wanna marry me yet.. ok.. lame. [i know]. what is up with me today? im thinking too much. procrastinating too. im very good at that. one of my talents. see? im still typing. i hope you’re  impressed.

so. yes. guitar much? i want. so badly. as well ass less body weight, flawless skin and a tub of ben and jerry’s cherry garcia … but.. life is not as such.

[sigh]

life goes on, right?

[in]deed.

x

CM

sata fe, [new meh-hee-koh] – yes, mexicoooooh..

so my darling host fam invited me to go to santa fe with them. we ski’d, visited galleries and museums. it’s phenominal, truly.

the buildings were [superb], the architecture is typical. good tourist attraction – plaza was cool. blossoms, i hope touring the world will become a reality for me oneday.

sigh..

a girl can only dream,,,

[amen] and out.

CM

[baby] you’re a firework

so! my little blossoms…

i have recorded an acoustic cover of firework by katy perry, and compiled a video bout my treasurous moments in [us] of a.

check it out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNfFwI2Jl70&feature=channel_video_title

love you, blossoms.

X

cm